Manifesting a Healthy Partnership Starts with Health
In my journey of self-love, I have chosen painful partnerships. I
have chosen unreciprocated love because I did not feel worthy of reciprocity. I
sacrificed my happiness to make the other happy. I received this pattern from
childhood. Many women in my family, mother, grandmother and great grandmother,
compromised their artistry, emotional fulfillment and creativity to satisfy the
needs of a man. The women in my family had no discernment, boundaries or
clarity. They gave themselves to men who did not cherish, preserve or help
their artistry, emotional fulfillment and creativity.
I realize love should not cause pain, misery and suffering. I
realize love is enjoyment. Of course, there are challenges and blessings but
there is a mutual desire to be happy. Discernment and boundaries helped me to
realize violation, avoidance and neglect isn’t what I want. Discernment and
boundaries taught me to be clear and confident in what I need for balance.
Without balanced partnership, love cannot find harmony. I learned balance in
freedom. I learned balance in centering myself on artistry, emotional
fulfillment and creativity that inspires, elevates and motivates me to be
happy. Embracing authenticity and freedom, I began visualizing partnership that
is respectful and generous. I began visualizing a partner who encourages
artistry, emotional fulfillment and creativity.
The painful partnerships I experienced all had a theme. I was very
expressive, open hearted, giving and loyal. These partners were disruptive,
emotionally unstable and insecure due to reckless behavior. In contemplation, I
discovered I am drawn to these partners because they mirror back to me
childhood depression. Many women in my family carry depression from
partnerships that were upsetting and disappointing. Subconsciously, my
self-worth carries the grief of women who did not get what they wanted or
needed for artistry, emotional fulfillment and creativity. The grief played out
through me. I found my artistry, emotional fulfillment and creativity disrupted
and violated by these painful partnerships.
Healing the painful partnerships, I began to empower my artistry,
emotional fulfillment and creativity by giving back major burdens taken on from
partners and focusing on my happiness. In nurturing, caring and loving myself,
I found discernment and boundaries to say NO to partnerships that do not
cherish, preserve or support my artistry, emotional fulfillment and creativity.
I am NOT a caretaker to a man like the women in my family are. I am woman! I am
here to be radiant, free and authentic! Self-empowerment gave me the courage
and confidence to believe in my life’s work and focus on that which inspires,
elevates and motivates me to excel. In facing the mirror of childhood
depression, I began to speak out to the self-neglect, self-hate, self-destruct,
by summoning healing to the grief stored within my emotional body. My emotional
body was disrupted by painful partnerships.
My emotional
body was violated by partners who did not support balance. I looked at my
childhood depression and spoke, “I am worthy of harmony and balance within my
own artistry, emotional fulfillment and creativity! I am worthy of
reciprocity!” The childhood depression brought up the memories of women who did
not feel worthy of artistry, emotional fulfillment and creativity and dwelled in
partnerships that did not fed their artistry, emotional fulfillment and
creativity. I saw the stagnancy of my low self-worth and the restriction on my
artistry, emotional fulfillment and creativity. In taking full responsibility
for my childhood depression, I began to accept and embrace discernment and
boundaries to help me take care of myself. I learned the pain in these
partnerships stem from not being supported and respected for my artistry,
emotional fulfillment and creativity. Once I began to respect my artistry,
emotional fulfillment and creativity I started to clear away all partnerships
that cause me to dwell in burdens belonging to a partnership that doesn’t
support clarity.
Discernment
1) Partnership
inspires me!
2) Partnership
balances me!
3) Partnership
provides for me!
4) Partnership
supports me!
Stating 4 discernment helps me to take care of me.
Boundaries
1) I
respect my freedom!
2) I
respect constructive expression!
3) I
respect loyalty!
4) I
respect honesty!
Stating 4 clear boundaries helps me to focus on what I need to
feel safe and open hearted.
Developing discernment and boundaries in my daily practice of
looking in the mirror and facing my wants and needs, I move beyond childhood
depression by taking care of my artistry, emotional fulfillment and creativity.
This practice gives me clarity and helps me to get REAL with myself! In return,
I come across clear to a partner and REAL about the partnership for me and not
for me. In taking care of me, I do not take on burdens, indulge in confusion or
participate in false partnerships that bring weakness to my life. Any partnership that brings weakness to
our life is not a partnership of discernment and boundaries. Relationships
bring reassurance, strength to the life. Once I entrust myself in enjoyable
partnerships, I realize artistry, emotional fulfillment and creativity is my
strength to offer in partnership. We take care of ourselves to give strength to
love. When we don't take care of ourselves we give weakness to love.
What is your living empowered/authentic
code that leads your happiness?
Mine is artistry, emotional fulfillment and creativity. This
authentic code nourishes, feeds and inspires me to live empowered. Once we find
our living empowered code/authentic code we are able to trace the wellness or
lack their of in our family and look into the mirror and summon reality quantum
leaps to any cold depression that may cause us to dwell, settle or involve
ourselves in low energy partnerships. Partnership is to move, reassure and
evolve. But, partnerships need clarity, real discussion without weakness, clear
discernment and boundaries to help us decide the creative mission of the
partnership and higher love to excel.